You know… Im trying hard to keep a positive attitude and a smile on my face. Breathing in and breathing out.
But its hard when I can feel her, all around me. In everything. A song plays and it just so happens to be her favorite song. I had a dream about her and wake up to find all our old friends posting about how they’ve been thinking about her lately. Posting old photos of her.
Katie, I miss you more than you can imagine.
I’ve been told that it’ll get better over time. “Just give it time shara. It gets easier.”
No. No, it doesn’t.
I can’t remember what you look like anymore. I can’t remember the sound of your voice. I can’t remember how you smell. What your laugh sounds like.
I can’t remember your smile..
Its been three years, soon to be four. And Im starting to forget. And Im scared. I don’t want to forget. Its like… Everything was fine and then I felt like I just found out you had died all over again.
I miss you Katie.
Please come see me In my dreams.
I can still feel you.
You’re still here.