You know… Im trying hard to keep a positive attitude and a smile on my face. Breathing in and breathing out.
But its hard when I can feel her, all around me. In everything. A song plays and it just so happens to be her favorite song. I had a dream about her and wake up to find all our old friends posting about how they’ve been thinking about her lately. Posting old photos of her.
Katie, I miss you more than you can imagine.
I’ve been told that it’ll get better over time. “Just give it time shara. It gets easier.”
No. No, it doesn’t.
I can’t remember what you look like anymore. I can’t remember the sound of your voice. I can’t remember how you smell. What your laugh sounds like.
I can’t remember your smile..
Its been three years, soon to be four. And Im starting to forget. And Im scared. I don’t want to forget. Its like… Everything was fine and then I felt like I just found out you had died all over again.
I miss you Katie.
Please come see me In my dreams.
I can still feel you.
You’re still here.
The pain I feel is oh so real, hearts all broken it’s so surreal. I barely even knew you but you touched me in such a way, I still can’t believe you aren’t here today. We saw you on the open road and of us who could’ve known that soon you would be taken, and leave us so shaken. Isn’t it so easy…
I wish she was here right now so I could tell her everything that has been going on.
God I miss her so much. I keep finding old pictures of her everywhere and meeting new people everyday that had no idea she died. :/ Just like reliving the nightmare all over again. Fuck.
No one will ever know how much I love and miss her and how much she meant to me.